Ash Thoreau

I’m a little nervous. I keep having these random, sharp chest pains—not constant, but definitely noticeable. Part of me wonders if I’m just being paranoid, but the other part is freaking the hell out.

I just realized I never heard back from the cardiologist and, honestly, kind of forgot about it. I’ll be calling my doctor first thing in the morning. Last I heard, the cardiologist or my doctor was supposed to reach out. So far, nothing.

In the meantime, I ordered a pulse oximeter. I scared myself yesterday when I felt short of breath for a bit, so I figured it wouldn’t hurt to have one. It should arrive in the morning.

Lately, it feels like every day brings something new to spike my anxiety. I can’t tell if I’m overreacting or if I actually have reason to worry. I hate straddling this line between denial and assuming the worst.

I just want to see the cardiologist.