Mental Health
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Surviving Myself
The last couple of days have been a rollercoaster of emotions. Earlier this week I really struggled. I had spiraled after an argument with my husband—even though we had already talked things through. I just couldn’t shake the feeling that I was a burden to my family, like I was holding them back. The thoughts Continue reading
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Twinges of the Heart
I’m a little nervous. I keep having these random, sharp chest pains—not constant, but definitely noticeable. Part of me wonders if I’m just being paranoid, but the other part is freaking the hell out. I just realized I never heard back from the cardiologist and, honestly, kind of forgot about it. I’ll be calling my Continue reading
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Tuesday + 1 Day Tally
So my doctor may have been right. This week I did lose more than two pounds, which is exactly what she was worried about. So I guess she has a point, I will be attempting to eat more. Walgreens is ticking me off with my prescription. I only get one box of injections a month Continue reading
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It’s Been a While
Two months, to be exact. It’s not that I haven’t wanted to write—I just haven’t had the words. But I’m here now, ready to catch you up on life and share some of the challenges I’ve faced when it comes to posting here or on social media. Rapid-Fire Updates Our Disney trip was fantastic—truly. It Continue reading
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Another Tuesday Tally on a Wednesday
Last week was tough—my depression hit hard after some issues at home, and I had two of the lowest days I’ve felt in years. Yesterday, I finally started feeling like myself again. With just a short shift today, I’m hopeful that some rest will have me back to 100% by tomorrow. On a brighter note, Continue reading
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Rx Nature
Nature has always been my sanctuary. When I was younger, I made it a priority to immerse myself in it—whether hiking through trails or parking in a quiet spot to soak up the stillness. A few hours outside could lighten my heart and reset my mind. But things changed after I became a parent. Those Continue reading
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Tuesday Tally (On a Wednesday)
Well, these past few days have been something else. Saturday night was a marathon: a 13-hour shift thanks to the time change. Grueling doesn’t even cover it. But at least I got some sleep afterward since my husband was home to handle things. Then Monday hit, and my toddler’s sleep schedule was completely off. Usually, I Continue reading
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Big Boy No. 4014
I finally got to see it—Union Pacific’s Big Boy No. 4014. And honestly, I can’t overstate what a transformative experience it was. It was one of those rare moments where everything seemed to align perfectly. But to understand why it was so special, let me take you back a little. I work as a dispatcher Continue reading
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Breaking the Cycle
I have two disclaimers to this post: I’ve been reflecting a lot on how I see my body, especially since becoming a mom. One of my biggest goals is to stop the cycle of self-criticism—both for myself and for my daughter. I refuse to let her grow up feeling the way I did. I don’t Continue reading
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Damned Epiphany
I think my kid is having anxiety attacks and it breaks my fucking heart. Tonight she was throwing a full on tantrum. She wanted to watch her show but every time I turned it on, she’d start screaming. So I would turn it off. She’d start screaming more. We continued in this fashion for about Continue reading
Ash Thoreau 